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09/03/2008: "i feel like poo D:"

anthony green - dear child
angry and upset

I know I promised a picture post of Pennsylvania, but you'll have to go to my livejournal to see them because I just don't feel like typing it all up again in greymatter. So view those pictures here please.
I am extremely unhappy and things are not looking up for me at all. Earlier this summer business really slowed down with Meschantes Custom Corsets to the point where I had no work to do with them. I quickly jumped in to a new job to sustain myself until business picked back up. I started working at a place called Educational Outfitters and I did the embroidered logos for school uniforms. From day one the whole store was in utter chaos. A complete mess of the clothing isles, the backrooms and shipping, and not to mention the department I worked in was backed up from month old orders that hadn't been completed. I put up with it because it was money and I liked working with embroidery machines, they are smart.
Let me go back a bit to before I got this job, I went in for an interview and they asked me to RESCHEDULE my already planned and paid for trip to PA so I could begin working with them. Being in no position to refuse work, I had to pay and extra 180 to reschedule my flight home and I started working on August 5. I worked really hard for them and I did my job well. They said it was OKAY for me to take my rescheduled vacation on August 19, because by then things would slow back down in the store and they would have someone cover for me. So I went home.
Upon returning from vacation, I went to check and see when I had work again and they had REPLACED me. They USED me to get through their ridiculously busy time of the summer! But here's the thing that gets me fired up the most: they said I would be on full time, they never once said I was temporary. They said that after things slowed down, I would have a regular Mon-Fri 9-6 schedule and they would train me in the computer software to create the embroidered logos. THEY LIED TO ME. So now I am jobless because there is still no work for me with Meschantes, and I have been turning in application after application with no results! I don't know what to do with myself, I'm at a loss.
On top of that, when I came back from vacation I found out that my cat had been throwing up every day while I was away. She is sick, I took her to the vet with little results from that expense, and I can't afford the cost of those things without a job!
I don't think I've ever felt like this, jobless, searching, feeling lost and hopeless. I'm trying to stay positive about it, but it's so hard. It's hard on my parents who now have to help me so much more, and I don't want to be like this.
To add to the financial struggle, my wisdom teeth are coming in!! I didn't have them removed when I was in high school because x rays showed them down really far, just sitting there. My mom didn't want me to miss school or put me through the pain, so we just postponed and NOW.. at 22 yo they are growing in I feel fine though! I had a bad headache one day, but they're not pushing on my other teeth so that is a plus...

Oh, and to not make this post have a completely sour vibe, I'm in the newspaper! Haha, well I'm in a picture when I went to see my amazing friend Lucas play at our coffee and tea room downtown while I was visiting PA.

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